he's just another part of me

  Some time ago I posted in social media a post about how I am not one of those fans who thinks Michael is a God or an angel, that he is only human and it's time for everyone to just accept it and accept him as he is.  As amazing as he is, he is only human and I love him and support him because of who he really is and not the idea of who he is or who I or other moonwalkers believe he is.    I was thinking at the time that after everything I read about him and watched, after all what I considered an intense research, I know exactly who he is, that I may not know everything about him, but I know a lot and what I know about him is enough for me to determine who he really is. This week I came across two videos of two individuals who knew him well, one was a woman who dated him I believe in late 70s through early 80s And the other Is a very close friend of Michael, who I believe is still in contact with him today. They both said something that I heard LMP sayin...

  Last night I missed another episode of the masked singer. (Israel) I don’t follow shows properly lately.   When I woke up this morning my sister who watched it told me who was behind the hippo mask, and it was a shocker! She told me not just because of the shocking revelation but also because this guy named Ben was one of my crushes when I was a teenager. And of course she remembered that. You can always trust a sibling to remind you your past.   He is a singer songwriter, and he is known as super shy, but under the mask he was completely free and acted the exact opposite of how everybody knew him. That is why his name never came up as a possibility to be behind the hippo costume.     He explained the change in behavior in the fact that when he first started he was only 21 and insecure, and today at 45 years old, and a father of two he is a different person and he thought it was time to show other sides of himself. It was really fun seeing him like this....

  On January 19 th Lisa Marie Presley was laid to rest A few days later they held a memorial for her at Graceland that was broadcast live for people around the world to watch. The same day my Instagram feed has been bombarded with edited images of Lisa and Michael in heaven and people saying that they are finally together again. Let's put aside the fact that Michel is not in heaven right now, if to quote his words, heaven can wait.   I really don’t understand people thinking that this two are together when they clearly do not belong together. They were in love once true, but once they fell out of love and they both moved on, why would they now be together? And especially when it is obvious that Michael was not Lisa's true love. Why do I say that?   Because I remember things that either people don’t remember or just haven’t noticed, about how Lisa (RIP) talked about Michael in the media, how she talked about her first husband Danny keough after divorcing Mic...

  Wednesday was another one of those days that you get to experience if you are one of those people that believes Michael Jackson is alive and planning a comeback. I really thought that time and experience made me wiser, and that I have finally learned to not get so excited over what just seems as big news.     Well, I thought it was something, I believed it was something, I believed that This is it was finally happening and BAM day is finally here. As I have so many times in the past. Let me explain to you how the mind of a believer works before I tell you the full story of what happened Wednesday. First of all, we take everything seriously and literally. It's funny sometimes, but I guess it's part of the believers' business.   We are giving many meaningless things meaning, and later we find out we were wrong, but still believing in Michael's return, we never stop looking again for the exact same things. We are always looking for any post with the word...

  I can't believe that it took such sad news for me to reactivate this blog And on Friday the 13 th of all days. Last night I went to bed with the sad news that Lisa Marie Presley had a cardiac arrest, I posted about it as soon as I found out, and asked people to pray for her I woke up several hours later learning that she had passed. The news was really sad for me and I didn’t understand why at first, I was not a fan of her In fact, in previous podcasts that I hosted I expressed how much I didn’t like how she talked about Michael in interviews after the divorce, so as I said I wasn’t a fan But today after hearing about her passing, and seeing how weak she looked just two days before on the red carpet, my heart has softened and I reminded myself that at some point she did love Michael and she made him happy. As soon as I heard I automatically thought of Michael and how sad he must be I believe that once you love someone no matter what happened between you, you will...

  Damn! I so badly wanted to write a positive post today. I even had a draft ready, but then I saw it, the article, that ruined my plan, and my mood.   In case you haven’t noticed, today is November 11 th And not just November 11 th , its 11.11.22. A really special date that I waited for a long time. What is so special about this day, and how is Michael related to it? Well, in case you don’t know our Michael is into numerology, his favorite number is seven. For all kinds of reasons that I won't write about right now, if you really want to know about it there's plenty of info everywhere on line. Today I was supposed to tell some of you who don’t know, that not only I am a fan, and a proud moonwalker, I am also part of a large group inside the fandom that are called believers. The believers are people that not only believe but know after long and intense research that our Michael, Michael joe Jackson is in fact alive, and planning on making a big come back. When and ...

  There was a time when I use to post real pictures of Michael with fictionist stories of our marriage life, just to be clear, our marriage only happened in my head. It was something I did for fun, Michael one time said he is married to his fans and I may have taken those words a little too literally.   unfortunately, I can't find that twitter account anymore, but I remember stories I posted like, one time I was complaining to Michael (my husband) that he doesn't bring me flowers anymore, so he decided to pick some up on his way home from work. and I posted a picture of Michael catching flowers that fans threw at him. Or there was a story from our "honeymoon" you can see Michael looking straight to the camera, a little shocked, holding a book so I wrote something like, that poor guy, just wanted to read his book, he just looked at me and said AGAIN?? I remember people really got into it, laughing and say, oh poor guy you are wearing him out. Or I told about a ti...